It has been awhile since the last entry ... Got caught up with life in general - my Dad's admittance to IJN - the check-ups, the emotional roller-coaster everytime he is admitted, not to mention the job that demands me to be more than just a lecturer - I am like the ALL-in-one solvent LOL I am supposed to be a SUPERWOMAN ... That explains why I had Alicia Keys Superwoman on full blast on my MP3 every morning on my way to work ... It is like a mantra to last me the whole day I guess...
Anyways, I have been trying to practice the three 'ALIF's ever since Ramadhan...The first one is 'ikhlas' - one should perform good deeds all the time regardless when no one is looking / judging. As it is done for Allah's blessing. The second one is 'ihsan' - one should do good deeds to those who mistreated / did bad things to you in the past. One should not seek for revenge - instead treat the evil-doers with respect and show compassion. The third one is 'ihram' - there are practices / actions allowed but one should try to withold from doing it in order to be a better person. Through Ramadhan - it was easy to follow since everyone around you is fasting ( they are at their best behaviour ) but try practicing it now - in Raya month... I am telling you, it is NOT easy at all. I supposed once Ramadhan is over, they simply went back to their own evil selves. The 'kiasu', selfish and mean Malaysians.
This morning, there were a few incidents in the LRT that make me feel like practicing some of the moves in the old arcade game Street Fighters ( back breaker, jack-knife ) to some of those evil, selfish and mean people. There was this lady who wears the headscarf ( mind you - this is one the signs that 'should' show that she is a devout Muslim ) who literally pushed & shoved her way into the train. I was standing there first when she shoved her way, but the moment she was in, she was like pissed I am there at that spot. She kept on nudging me and I can almost see the bubble on top of her head blaming me for standing there in 'her' spot. I felt like telling her that I searched & I could not find her name 'stamped' there on the spot. I endured the hostility till we reached the station of Titiwangsa. I went down at the station to board Monorail with a sigh of relief. But little did I know, there would be another episode of 'hell' on earth that morning. As I went to the escalator, there right in front of me was another lady who 'majestically' stand and refused to let others pass her on the right side of the escalator. I tried to overtake her as there was no one in front of her on the escalator, but she simply ignored me. I was caught / trapped by this selfish woman and those at my back was giving me a hard time as well. Well, be my guest, kick the bloody hag in front of me - I tried 'Excuse me' and it did not work .
I am not saying that I am perfect, but I do try NOT to make other people's life miserable because of me. Argh ... feel like putting on an all white contact lenses, dressed in a vampirish costume & scare the hell out of those irritating people out there. It must be the Halloween mood eh ...
Feel much better now ... Will try to be the old sweet me again once I am out of this 'DISTURBIA' state...hehehe
See ya.
